Tuesday, November 20, 2012

受伤

‘灯光熄灭了,音乐静止了,滴下的眼泪已停不住了;天下起雨了,人是不快乐,我的心真的受伤了’ 又是劳累而睡不着的一天,这样的生活已经维持三个月了,到底几时才能停止。坚强,有自信,假乐观,所有的所有都把所有的人给骗了,甚至连自己都蒙在鼓里。 以为狂欢,以为胡闹,就能让自己忘记所有的一切。可是,再怎么狂欢,再怎么胡闹,却让自己更清楚自己的真伪。不敢面对,也没有勇气去接受未来,我到底怎么了?
很想恨他,很想讨厌他,为什么把这样的生活带给我。可是,我做不到,所以就选择了原谅。“他”的出现把他给赶走了,还以为一切的一切都已经结束了,可是却没想到结局只有4个字-一塌糊涂。
也许是我太胡闹了吧,也许是我太没安全感吧!也也许是"他“还放不下她。不管什么原因,不可能就是不可能,只好把”他“放在心里的一个角落,永远都不让”他“知道。

Sunday, October 10, 2010

我们做回朋友吧,永远在一起。

你说:“我们做回朋友吧”
那么,请问:我可不可以继续和你分享我的快乐?
我可不可以借你的肩膀流泪?我还可以每天和你通电话吗?
我想见你的时候,是不是不需要任何的借口?我寂寞的时候,你还会陪我散步吗?
我穿得漂漂亮亮去见你的时候?你会称赞我吗?我想搂着你的时候,你会拥抱我吗?
我可以知道你跟谁来往吗?她是什么人?你有多喜欢她?
我可不可分担你的烦恼?我可不可以帮你做事?我可不可以向你撒娇?
如果,今天我很想的话,我可以睡在你旁边吗?
你生日的那天,可以跟我一起过吗?
我们是不是永不说再见。

我要跟你做这种朋友。
如果不可以的话,我们便不要做朋友好了。
不纠缠不证明我不爱。只是不纠缠,是我能够为我们曾经的爱,
能为你做的最后一件事一段以为会天长地久的爱情走到了落幕的时候。
一个以为会执她之手,与她偕老的爱人走到了分手的时候。
我们该如何面对。
该如何给这段感情一个交代,该如何给爱过的,也正爱着的那个人一个结局?

解决无非是两种
纠缠与不纠缠
是的,我理解,我清楚,我明白
眼睁睁的看着全心全意付出的感情
那个爱着的人离开
是多么残忍,是多么绝望的事
可是残忍和绝望不是纠缠对方的理由
是的,我理解
纠缠是想挽回对方的心
留住对方的情
希望重新开始
将感情继续下去,
给彼此一个新的机会~
给爱一个机会去厮守~

可是,分手的时候,越是纠缠不休,越会让自己伤的更加体无完肤。
伤害的不止是自己的心和身。
还会让对方,面对你的纠缠说出更绝情的话,甚至做出更绝情的事。
纠缠也践踏了自己的尊严。
你越是不死心,不放弃,越是挽留,越是纠缠,
只会让对方看轻你,让他走的更快,更远。
这样就把自己从绝望推入了万劫不复的地狱。
如果他真的要分手,那就让他走吧,干净利落的走,笑着让他走。
即使心里已经哭成了海,也不要去纠缠,挽留。
大方的让他走。
也许,某天,他还会想起你,还会想起你们的旧情,记起你的好。

我深信,他应该很了解我对他的感情,能够体会出,我对他付出的是真心
既然,他不肯留下,那我何必纠缠,那就放他走,给他自由。
可是,我不纠缠不等于我不想他,不等于,我没有爱过他。
我思念他的心,依然折磨我在日日夜夜。
往往别人不经意的一句话,就能让我想起他。
走在寒冷的街上,再也没有他温暖的手握住我冰冷的手。
那些孤寂的夜里,再也不会有他温暖的拥抱温暖我。

每个失眠的夜,再也没有他的句句关心,字字问候。
甚至电话也一声不响,陪着我沉默。曾经为了他一个电话而欢喜不已。
他不在,时间却不会停止不前
如果时间可以停止,我希望时间停在我们最相爱的那段日子
他不在,我的生活还要继续,一如已往,心底的伤, 欲盖弥彰,
自己的伤,自己解决,自己的心情,自己整理,自己的疼痛,自己埋葬
但, 不会找他
我能做的就是咬着牙自己对自己说,坚持下去。
卷缩在角落,等待着伤口平复,
我们都是凡尘男女,挣不出纠缠的情网,逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡
心碎神伤后,是漫无止境的寂寞
幸福的感觉也许只能刹那,刹那过后,是一个人的落寞
上帝让我在错误的时间遇上了你
我,哭了
它让我在正确的时间离开了你
你,会哭吗?

好想你能知道,不纠缠,不证明我不爱你,不纠缠,不证明我不想你,不纠缠,不证明我没伤
只是不纠缠,是我能够为我们曾经的爱,
能为你做的最后一件事。

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Quenny's life - part 1

I really don't know how I can survive in that past 4 months. Unhappiness, lying to myself, sadness, lost confident and so on. But till now, I only realize that there is nobody can't live without somebody. I tell myself I have to find back the previous Quenny and I pray to God everyday. Finally, I find back the previous Quenny with the blessing of God. I promise to myself, I won't let myself to get hurt again and I have to live in happiness. Even one of my friend who tell me that I really very cool. She said that every time I face with problem or get hurt, I still can stand up and tell them "I'm fine because I'm Quenny".

Thanks for my friends and colleagues who are always support me and always accompany me when I'm down. They bring me out and bring me to have a lot of delicious food. The first destination is "Look Out Point". It is located at the half of the mountain. We can enjoy our dinner and KL's night view. It makes me feel relax. If you have your partner, you can bring them along too cause there is quite romantic.





If you are bread admirer, I will introduce you to "LeVain Boulangerie Patisserie". There consists of different type of bread and cake. It is very delicious. Beside that, I like the environment too. It really suit for gathering. After eating all those dessert, it make me feel happy.





The third place that introduce to all of you is "Chilis". There are a lot of delicious food. But the most experience thing is my colleagues have order a bottle of red wine and this is the first time for me to drink a glass of red wine. Just a glass of red wine already make me blur but nevermind, it's time for Quenny grows up and learn a lot of things..:p




Wednesday, July 14, 2010

我不是你想像那麽勇敢

有时候太坚强 笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏 歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处
你不要追问我 还缺了些什麽
每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

Friday, March 20, 2009

Earth Hour

Do you know what is "Earth Hour"?

Earth Hour is an annual international event created by the World Wide Fund for Nature/World Wildlife Fund (WWF), held on the last Saturday of March, that ask households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change. It was pioneered by WWF Australia and the Sydney Morning Herald in 2007 and it achieved worldwide participation in 2008.

In this year which is 2009, Earth Hour has been transformed into the world's first global election, between Earth and global warning.

  • 168 cities commit to Earth Hour 2009 since launch
  • 6 additional national capitals pledge their support for ‘lights out’ campaign
  • Scotland joins the growing list of countries promising to flick the switch


The cities which already listed to participate in Earth Hour 2009 include Cape Town, Chicago, Copenhagen, Dubai, Hong Kong, Istanbul, Las Vegas, Lisbon, London, Los Angeles, Manila, Mexico CIty, Moscow, Nashville, Oslo, Rome, San Francisco, Singapore, Sydney, Toronto, and Warsaw. The new additions to the list of cities participating in Earth Hour 2009 span the globe; from South America, to Europe, to Asia, to the South Pacific, including national capitals Beijing in China, Edinburgh in Scotland, Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia, Kiev in the Ukraine, Bogota in Columbia and Wellington in New Zealand.

For the first time in history, people of all ages, nationalities, race and background have the opportunity to use their light switch as their vote – Switching off your lights is a vote for Earth, or leaving them on is a vote for global warming. WWF are urging the world to VOTE EARTH and reach the target of 1 billion votes, which will be presented to world leaders at the Global Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen 2009.

This election is not same with any other election in history, it is not about what country you’re from, but instead, what planet you’re from. VOTE EARTH is a global call to action for every individual, every business, and every community. A call to stand up and take control over the future of our planet. Over 74 countries and territories have pledged their support to VOTE EARTH during Earth Hour 2009, and this number is growing everyday.

We all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations. VOTE EARTH by simply switching off your lights for one hour, and join the world for Earth Hour.

Be part of the Earth Hour - tell your friends, tell your story. Make a difference!

Saturday 28 March 2009, 8.30pm-9.30pm
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